Belated Mothers Day

Mothers Day was stake conference Sunday for our ward so the Primary did their cookie-flower deliveries today. They're always so cute! And almost always eaten by everyone but the moms. #kinleej


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Mothers Day 2013

This beautiful little girl made me the happiest woman in the world when she made me a mom. Being a mom was always my only real goal---it really was my little girl dream. I love that role more than almost any other! It was the easiest, smoothest, happiest transition I ever made and I have never wished for a job, vacations, trips, recognition or money to take me away from it. It is the one thing I always wanted and I am so grateful I got it! I am so thankful for her and that she calls me "MOM". She's a gift...motherhood is a gift, both things I'll never take for granted...I know how hard it is for some to get it in the first place, others to keep it once they got it and even (for some) to really enjoy it in the moment of it all---good & bad, the ins, outs, the sleepless nights, screaming tantrums, difficult behavior whatever it is I will still always be thankful I have the opportunity here on this earth to be a mom and I look forward to eternity ahead of raising our children and loving the one I already have!

Even though sad thoughts and feelings of "what if" and "why me" sometimes creep in to my thoughts every Mothers Day I have to say I still love Mothers Day more than I don't. Only because I love that I have the sweetheart of a daughter that I do. I am grateful for the wonderful man who made me in to a mother in the first place. And I could never forget the sweet mom who gave me life & who raised me with gentle soft spoken kindness, the without-guile-void-of-judgment-example-of-placing-priorities in all the right places. And though we are so much different in so many ways from each other I have so much gratitude and love for the pretty awesome mother in law who loves and supports her children, each and every one, and who I can thank forever for the amazing man she brought in to this world. And finally the sisters and friends, and amazing other women in my life who I love so much, especially one certain one who never ceases to spoil me like I really was her daughter. Today I feel loved and I'm full of gratitude. And with that long winded spiel, I am now off to watch "Safe Haven" for the second night in a row with the wonderful guy who I have to thank for the greatest gift of all to me...my beautiful, wonderful, sweet, smart, enthusiastic little ball of energy and pure joy of a little girl who keeps me on my feet and gives me every reason to keep moving forward. I'm definitely one lucky mom and I know it.

Mothers Day (Early)

Mothers Day each year is one of the best and one of the worst days for me. 

The best because I am a mom. 

And the worst because I desperately want to be a mom (to more children). It's hard on a good day but extra hard on certain ones and mothers day can easily take the cake on being one of the harder of any days to deal with the emotions of it all. Secondary infertility is by far the heaviest weight and the most painful burden I have ever had to carry. It has caused more anquish and suffering than I ever imagined I'd have to endure.

So on that note and so I don't dwell on the latter...Kinlee wanted me to open my mothers day card from her today after school.

It's two days before Mothers day but why not. 

It came with a booklet slipped in to a scrapbook paper watering can and though the words are spelled mostly all wrong I can still tell what they say.

And what they say melts me. 

Being a mother makes me more happy than I could ever, ever say.
And it's things like this that make me realize why being a mom makes me so incredibly happy...

"This is my Mom and me...

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY"

My Mom loves....

yellow 

and me and dad. 

She's the best.

My Mom is good at...

swiming 

and luvng me. 

reding. 

(and) tuking me in.

My Mom is happy when...

she ses yellow.

(and) wen she ses me do something good.

The best thing about my Mom...

my MOM is butifol 

and she is nis. 

she is smart. 

she loves me. 

I love my Mom because...

she is butifl. 

and she liks my dad 

and 

my mom is strong. 

My Mom and I like to...

gow on 

vakashins because 

it is fun. and 

bike ride.

7th Birthday, 8th Anniversary...

Kinlee's birthday party was almost a month ago. She had a blast with one friend and her family and the weather stunk bad so we ended up staying home to celebrate. She always wants Lasagna and garlic bread (2 of her favorite things) for supper so that was it. She loves animal print and I went the easy route and ordered her cake DQ style...that's our style around here. It turned out so cute and tasted pretty amazing too. 

Her immediate thought each off year in answer the question who she wants at her Birthday party is always Dani. So Dani it was! They spent hours playing and a good chunk of time enjoying the hot tub. They were too cute the entire sleepover weekend party! 

 Kinlee got a lot of fun gifts from clothes to movies to a skateboard and scrapbook to earrings and a Taylor Swift CD to this darling huge card from Dani. Such a sweet candy gram and thoughtful message. These two are the cutest little besties!!

Eating their cake...

Josie couldn't handle waiting until the evening to give Kinlee all her presents so Kinlee got to open one of them in the afternoon and they were so cute while working on Kinlee's new Smashbook, she's wanted one for awhile, just like Josies!

They are my favourite...my daughter, one I birthed and the other from another mother...love em both more than I could ever say.

Our baby is one year older and there is nothing we can do about it!

 We feel so blessed to have this spunky, wild, crazy, fun, sweet, sensitive, kind-hearted little love bug in our life and we couldn't imagine life without her! 

She is our biggest blessing. 

She weasles herself in between us sometimes, has never wanted us to hug without her...she tries to steal her daddy's heart and tends to have jealous bone in her sweet little spirit. She loves with all her heart, adores her daddy, gets in trouble, shares her love, notices those who are sad, likes to be busy and involved, gives most people a run for their money and can melt the hardest heart in less than a heartbeat. She loves fashion and style. She has a love for the color aqua and loves animal print anything. She is a baby lover with the best of them. She's a spiritual giant, loves to pray and has a strong testimony. She loves to read and learn and isn't always the best at following directions. She is often stubborn and thinks she can do her own thing and sometimes she tests the limits as far as she can. But she's responsible and quick to help, she reaches out with a kind helping hand when the need is there and she loves people with all her heart. She loves to create and build and collect. There's so much I could say about this little gal and  as much as it's the toughest thing in the world to have the trial we do of seeing her grow up so fast and not have the ease of choosing our family size and siblings for a deserving little angel we love getting so much time with her to get to know her the way we do to spend so much time one on one or all three of us at a time, she's a sweetheart who we feel we are blessed beyond measure with!!!

So whenever she turns a year older so do we...

Our eternal marriage together was performed on April 23, 2005 and it was only 11 days short of our first anniversary when we welcomed Kinlee in to our marriage. Knowing her personality now, I am not surprised she joined us so quickly and I would not be surprised if she wouldn't take no for an answer when she knew she wanted to join our family so soon here on this earth. I am also sure there are others much more laid back who await their turn to come to earth and join our family. 

So for now we turn 8 while Kinlee turns 7. 

And just as our wedding 8 years ago came before Kinlee, 

so does our marriage...

it's my first priority in life, 

my #1. Monty King Jensen will always be my #1. 

I love him so much and could not imagine my life without him.

I know it would be dry and dull, boring and lame.

With him, it's fun and funny, it's enjoyable and full of spontaneity, laughter and a faith in the unseen deeper than anything I have ever felt. 

It's because of him that I trust so much in tomorrow.

It's because of him that I hope for a better world

and things to come.

He gives me life and love,

a reason to live

and even, at times, a reason to love.

He is everything to me and I am so thankful every day and every night for him.

He's the hardest working man I know. 

He's the toughest guy I have ever met.

He has the deepest stamina in all the ways a person can.

He's the manliest man I know.

He goes through things no one else could ever understand or comprehend and he goes through them without murmuring or complaint.

He lives his life to the fullest and gives his marriage and family, his career and everything he's given stewardship over everything he has. 

He is the most amazing person I have ever known.

And he is mine forever and I thank my lucky stars he never took no for an answer or I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be where I am.

I love being married. I love who I'm married to.

I love laying down at night with a warm supportive arm around me, someone to talk to for hours if we wanted, someone to hold me no matter.

The kind of guy who gets up in the middle of the night in the middle of a deep sleep with work the next morning and walks down wooden stairs on to cold concrete pavement in to a dark corner of an unfinished garage to heat up a blanket in a dryer all because I said I was cold. Not because I expect it or even ask for it but just because of the kind of man he is.

I am grateful to be married to the kind of guy who when the hot water runs out in a tiny old house will heat pot after pot after pot of water to a boil and carry it from stove to bathroom to dump in to the bathtub until his sick pregnant wife can take a hot bath to ease her sore incapacitated body when she's got the body aches and chills so sick with the flu and 6 months along.
I am grateful to be married to the kind of man who will lay his hands on my head and be at my beck and call to bless and comfort in times of pain and illness, trial or difficulty.

I am grateful that man is Mont and that I get to share his life and home, family and finances, that I get to have a sleepover every night with my best friend. And that I get to for the rest of our lives and in to forever and eternity. 

I feel like the luckiest girl alive sometimes to have such a stud to call my own!!

I love him!

8 years strong and on to forever...

"Come Grow Old 

With Me,

The 

Best 

Is 

Yet 

To

Be."

Lucky Me!

A Time & A Season

Wow I'm a horrible blogger and even sluffing at journaling as a whole which is so not like me.

April, though it brought with it plenty of misfortune with a broken down washer, a rental car windshield we had to replace, bad awful weather, my baby growing up and turning another year older, sicknesses for the Little and me & Mont a little more absent than usual---gone til after bedtime for Kinlee almost every night this month....it also brought with it silver linings all over the place too...a new & pretty awesome washer, a fixed shiny grill on the truck, another job to add to my plate, a blessing for sure---I got hired with Westwind School Division and get to work only a couple blocks from home with tons of adorable kids at the school & just doors down from Kinlee's classroom every day which also means I get to work only while she is away from me and get be home when she's home (which is the only way to go for me if I'm going to work at all outside the home with school aged children). Kinlee had a fun birthday party & our 8th anniversary reminded me how incredibly blessed I am with the amazing hard working, driven, ambitious, kind hearted, faith-filled, family-dedicated supportive fun and phenomenal man's man that I am married to and get to be side by side with forever, we still have yet to get out on a real anniversary date night or getaway. However, considering the stage in life that we are with so much to learn in this busy and new for us yet luckily thriving 30 year business to manage...we know there will be a time and season for the getaways and fabulous vacations we dream about & see so many others taking these days. For now, for us, its long hours, government deadlines, paperwork, accounting, balancing, marketing & keeping up quality intake management and above average outgoing dental restorative units. I hold on to the knowledge that the days of ease, free of weighty pressures and deadlines will come but for now we live day by day grateful each moment for the gifts and blessings we have and the things that lie in wait, that are promised as things just "around the corner". We look forward with an eye of faith and even in moments that could seem bleak, and or completely overwhelming, we know there is something amazing and beautiful that is being orchestrated just for us, these are the days of hard work and unfortunately little play, for us sometimes its grueling effort but we are gaining a solid and new dimension to our life and relationship as it is definitely a time for us to pull together as a team and as we prepare for a bright future while enjoying the blessings of living day by day & doing what is right for us in the present moments we are given, and of course we always look forward to less busy, brighter days of the future.

Life is good and we know its through difficult times, sometimes even stormy ones, that we learn the greatest lessons in life and for the depth of character that will go with us in to the eternities.


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